The Wilderness is a place of transition – and transformation. It is a space of relentless challenges. A land where navigation is only fully possible in the spiritual realm. One must trust God since reason, experience and all other known forms of knowing are almost completely void of existence. There are no paved roads in the wilderness. And what paths there are are but rarely traveled and are largely overgrown. The wilderness is full of attacks, sometimes silent and others knocking you breathless and even senseless.
The wilderness means being in vastly unfamiliar territory. For me it has been a place where I have had to first learn how to survive, and guide my kids through, with no manuals, only tools that I have apparently, somehow learned along the way. It is unique to me, I know, and is scary, lonely at times…
From a spiritual perspective, I trust that it is somehow necessary for me to be here, in the wilderness, in order to be what God has intended. There have been many tests and temptations…but I have to believe, as I continue to learn, that this is all according to plan.
Yet there is adventure here…trying to find a way through, taking new paths, enjoying the pleasant surprises that I sometimes find around the bend…and there is much work. I have learned to appreciate the moments often more than the days…
On a practical level there are just more questions than answers…really just very complicated… and I am still not good with serenity… I have to find a way to continue to transform the past, from pain and heartache to excitement, newness, adventure, joy of learning , becoming.
Yes here is where I must now find my way, through the wilderness.